Soul-searching......

I spent the whole of today working on some letters... some other minor documentation.... and fielding a few hundred phone calls...
And at the end of it all I just had one question for myself.... Is this what my life is going to be all about???
I mean, am I just destined to be an insignificant-cog-in-a-tiny-wheel-in-the-grand-machinery-of-Life??
I know, I know... without that one cog the whole machine could fall apart... blah.. blah.. blah..
But I dont want to be the insignificant-cog-in-a-tiny-wheel-in-the-grand-machinery-of-Life....
I want to be more...so much more...
I want to be that Giant Wheel that everyone can see and whose absense would be immediately missed...
But its days like today which make me doubt the possibility of that ever happening...
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In the Sidney Sheldon novel, The Other Side of Midnight, the lead female character has this line... she wants to be Catherine Alexander The Great..... But the great what??? And at the end of it all, she is betrayed and almost killed by her husband and ends up an amnesiac recovering in some God forsaken convent....
Now is that depressing or what??!!!
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I just have to figure this out: What do I need to do... or be... or have... to be Happy/Content/ At Peace...???
Some soul-searching is in order...

Mathemagic!!!!

This is soooo cool....
I am the proud possessor of an awesome magic trick....
And I am kind enough to demonstrate.....
Bow before me, lowly mortals!!!
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Alrighty then...
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Think of a number between 1 and 10
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Now multiply it by 5
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Then divide it by 2
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Now close your eyes....
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Dark, isn't it?
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HARHARHARHARHEEHEEHEEHOHOHOHO....
Yeah.... Im that easily pleased...

RTT: Squeakity squeakity squeak.....

Its Tuesday, and you know what that means....!! Random ramblings galore!!!!!
And for more Randomania (yes, its a word!)... go check out Keely at the Un-mom...
Cheers!
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My shoes squeak! They are like the rogue shopping carts in malls... apparently the only available ones by the time I arrive...
Sqeakity- squeak... squeakity-squeak....
And changing the speed of my stride doesn't help either... just alters the tempo a bit...
Squeeeakity...squueeeaakk...
Gah! its annoying!!!
Now I will never be able to realise my dream of becoming a ninja assasin... boo hoo...sob...
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I've not gone out in sooo long...
I think Im going to need a refresher course in Having-a-life...
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Im really missing my parents...
Im really missing my dogs...
Its hard living away from home...
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I have finally decided on my tattoo...
Now to make the appointment...
Yes mum, its happening.. :)
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Whoop whoop!!!! (I had to let that out...)

Invisible......

You look at me.... I drop my eyes....
I skirt around your perimeter...
You talk to me... I shy away....
My heart all a-flutter...
The days go by... you walk by me...
Sparing not a glance....
I look at you... you look through me...
Me.. the eternal wall flower...

RTT: The One Where.....

Ok... Its that special time of the week again... no, thats the special time of the month...

This special time is when we get to collect all the spare bits of fluff floating round in our heads and spew them out in all their random glory!!!!

So get randomising people!!!!!!!!

And dont forget to go visit Keely for more fluffy wonders...

Alrighty then!!!

First of all...

Happy Birthday to meeee.....

Happy Birthday to meeeee......

Happy birthday to meee-eee....

Haaaaappppy birthday toooo meeeeeeee....

Phew... that's been going round my head...all morning... in the voice of a shrill opera singer

Well, its out now...

Its finally stopped raining..... awwww, Mother Nature...did you do that just for me???

Im bored...

Im not hungry though (for once!).... had a lovely extended lunch with the office bunch... oohh that rhymed!!

I have gotten the crucial parental approval to get what Ive always wanted.... A TATTOO!!!

Hmmm...what to get???

1. Its has to have something to do with dogs

2. It has to be as far away from all cliches as possible

3. It has to portray my randomness.....

Its a pretty short list... but daunting!

So Im going to ponder some more....

Anybody want to make my life simpler and make suggestions?? I will remain eternally indebted to you.... I might even eat a cupcake on your behalf!!

Cheers!!

Happy birthday tooo meeee.............. Damn! Its not gone.....

RTT: The Thumb- Twiddler Edition

So, the entirety of today has been spent at different locations accompanied by mindless thumb- twiddling.....
It has eaten away at the few remaining brain cells I have left and all that remains is a pitiful amount of randomness.....
So if you are hungry for more... Go visit Keely at The Un-Mom... she rocks!
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Can you feel hungry and full at the same time??? I do and am currently experiencing this dilemma.... to eat or not to eat....
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I just learnt today that my laptop webcam is a potential spycam for hackers... ergo, I have spent the majority of my non- thumb-twiddling time devising different webcam masking techniques... I need to be effective and discrete... So far, all I have managed to do is tear off the sticky portion of a Post- it note and stick it over the cam lens.... maybe I should colour it in..... hmmm... Am I bored and desperate enough to go that far....???
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I saw the latest Harry Potter movie... I still maintain that the books are better.... and No, Daniel Radcliffe is NOT hot...!

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Im getting a suddden craving for Pringles... mmm....
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And thats it... my thoughts have petered out...
So long everyone... Cheers!

........... Thought Flow...........

I have always thought a lot about destiny/ fate/ karma....
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Are we born with a particular life-course charted out and pre-planned for us?
That no matter what decisions we make...no matter what paths we choose... we finally end up doing the same things, meeting the same people and experiencing everything else we would have, had we taken another route??
Had I chosen another school, university, profession or company would I have had a different life or through some twist of fate... through some other means it would have been a mirror image of my current life???
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Or do we start out with a clean slate? Solely responsible for however we may turn out...
Living our life as a result of the decisions we make....
That there is a possibility of many alternative lives...some better... some worse...
Its quite a scary thought that there is no one else to blame but ourselves for whatever happens...
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Sometimes I wish I could live my life over and over again.... making different decisions everytime just to see how I would turn out in the end... Pure curiosity, of course!
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Or what if there was a machine created which showed us the future effects of all our decisions... we could have perfect lives... erase all mistakes before they happened....
But then that would mean that Life would lose its element of surprise....
Afterall, its no fun to read a book when you already know its end, is it?
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RTT: That bed sure looks comfortable....

I can feel a fever setting in as I type this blog.... my eyes are beginning to feel as though they are the size of billiards balls.... and Im positively fantasizing about my bed....
Thats the main theme of my Random entry today... idea taken from Keely at The Un-Mom... check it for more random goodness....
So why am I sick when generally I have the constitution of a horse??? The freak storm we had yesterday of course!
Now everyone knows how much I adore *ahem* the rains... but monsoon ended in September... apparently, the weather did not receive this particular memo and decided to pour a few million gallons down on us all accompanied with gale force winds...
So I was drenched and wind dried until my immune system decided to take the day off...
Result... me walking around office in zombie fashion....
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This better wear off by tomorrow....
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Ah, Monsoons! How much do I hate thee.... let me count the ways.....

Random Tuesday Ramblings...

So.. Tuesday has dawned upon me... and this time I do have some things going around in my head in some sort of semi-organized manner....

(inner voice) Haha... I just scrambled things up... Go fetch!... oohhh... you are funny when you fume like that....

(me) GAH!!!

Ok.... hmmm...lets see.... ah, right!

Im really wiped out... being an adult is a tiring job!

Laundry!! The bane of my existence (except for my daily commute... I mean three hours in a train with my nose squashed into annonymous armpits... not my idea of fun... I mean, come on! Do you expect me to be in a good mood when I come in at work after that??? seriously????) anyways, back to the point.... laundry! I just washed a bucket full of clothes.............. BY HAND! Since I dont have a washing machine I get to spend some quality time with my clothes twice a week..... 

I mean if I wanted to splash around in soapy water I'd rather it be a warm, scented bubble bath... With me relaxing (after the train ride from hell)... soft music... candles......................

Damn you, Adam and Eve!!!!! Ate that stupid apple.... Realised there was a need for clothes....

Im planning on moving out...taking a place closer to work... Hopefully that will stop the whiny-voices in my head that start popping out each evening.... It will also mean that I can walk to work.... skip the train ride altogether... plus get in some form of exercise.... Fingers crossed on that front....

On another note....The parents have just let me know that come January they will begin the hunt for Mr. Right for me.... Im still reserving my opinion on this.... An arranged marriage?....Hmm.... Am I even ready for marriage? I will probably end up breaking into manic nervous giggles like the big, scaredy- cat that I am.... What a perfect way to scare-off prospective grooms-to-be...

I think Im just going to take this whole topic and lock it up in the Pandora's Box in my head.... maybe if I forget about it, it will go away....

I mean, the parents are cool... they would be fine if I sprung a boyfriend on them.... However, my lack of said boyfriend plus my inability to get guys interested (my few relationships havent lasted longer than breath-mints..)... all points towards the fact that maybe by the end of the next year I would be engaged to be married to a nice, decent, parent- approved boy... from my caste... whose horoscope matches mine..... 

Ummm.... yeah.... That kinda kicked-out most of the other thoughts in my head....

Hmmm.... let me see... no...nah... nope... nada...totally empty....

Well, its almost midnight...Tuesday is drawing to a close and so is this entry....

Go check out more randomness at the Un-Mom.... Be good... and play nice....

Cheers!

A monsoon rant....

So from my other posts it must be obvious how much I hate the monsoons.... I also hate people during the monsoons....
Case in point....
People walking on the roads..... Yeah lady, that means you! Its raining bucket-loads of water and if you have a gazillion bags in your hands and are trying to get your umbrella to co-operate (I feel for you...Believe me, I do..) try not to yak/ text on your phone at the same time.... I realise you cannot multi task as well as me... but if your umbrella whacks me on the head one more time or grazes close enough for me to fear for the safety of my eyes, Im sure you will not blame me if I take the pointy end of my umbrella and shove it up your nose!!!!
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Also, all you other people.... its raining... its crowded... and we are running a gauntlet between passing cars and people like Ms. Stabby mentioned above.... try to move your legs at a faster pace than that of grazing cows.... and if you have to stop and smell the roses...or chew cud... I suggest you move your asses to the very side of the effing road and give the people who are actually going somewhere the place to move!!!!!!!
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Please try not to act so offended when I shove past you muttering profanities (in all the languages I know)....
If you want me in a better mood, you can either-

1. Haul ass; or
2. Wait till September ends

Cheers!