Im in love...... and FINALLY it feels right!!

Im in love...... in love with the ghost of a past that could have been......................... and the shadow of a future yet to come.........

In my opinion, 20 years gives us enough time to realise what we have...what we want.... and also...what could have been...

I always considered myself a romantic..... believed there was a prince charming on a white horse waiting for me........ I even led myself to believe that I was in love... and not once or twice......but thrice.......... That was the ghost or rather ghosts of my past...a past that could have been...and yet, life and growing up has this way of bringing us out of our day dreams.... flinging off our rose coloured glasses and smacking us back to reality......

I have grown up...and none too soon..... I now look forward.... to a future...... yet to come....
And the romance of this situation is the uncertainty...the ambiguity of it all.... Whether the future I have envisioned for myself will actually materialise or not....................
The palpitations I now experience are not my heart beats dancing to the tunes of another person.... But for the excitement that one gets while watching ones future finally take shape....

And yet...I love both of these parts of my young life equally......
Each of them, in their own way, has helped me grow.... has shaped me into the person I am today......... the past has given me experiences...both good and bad.... more bad than good..... but all the same.... it has laid the foundation for my future...without which I would have been nothing but a message-in-a-bottle floating aimlessly in the restless ocean of life.....

Now...only one question remains..... where does my "today" fit in the equation???
Maybe the safest answer that I can give now is to say that my "today" is occupied thinking about the past..... planning out my future..... and working towards it.....

I have gotten my priorities straight..... FINALLY!
And I do believe that right now, as of this moment, NOTHING & NO ONE can make me stray away from my road to El Dorado.....

Everybody is a hero....

This thought comes from the least expected place... Spider-man-2.....
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"... there is a hero in all of us...that keeps us honest...gives us strength...makes us noble... and finally allows us to die with pride..... Even though sometimes we have to be steady and give up the thing we want the most...... even our dreams..."
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We dont have to be saints or politicians or rich philanthropists or great leaders in order to become heroes.... true, our actions or words may not be strong enough to influence a large circumference of population, but nonetheless they will definitely affect those closest to us...those who matter the most...those to whom we matter the most.....and most importantly ourselves....
The most important thing is to have confidence in ourselves.... to know that the decisions that we take are the right ones... and to have pride in ourselves for doing the right thing....
Cos it is never too late to make amends.....

If you know you are right...never ever let what others say pull you down.... you have to be steady...and never compromise on what you know is right..... whatever may be the repercussions!!!

Sure, it may sound difficult...it is never easy to give up your dreams..infact, it is almost impossible...(Also note: if there was no difficulty in giving up a dream...it simply means that what you gave up was not a dream in the first place).... but the satisfaction that you get is PRICELESS!!!!!

Im not doing bol-bacchhangiri.... maybe Ive never yet been faced by decisions where my dreams were at stake........................

Seems like this is not the best way to conclude my monologue.... but still.... THE END!!