I spent the whole of today working on some letters... some other minor documentation.... and fielding a few hundred phone calls...
And at the end of it all I just had one question for myself.... Is this what my life is going to be all about???
I mean, am I just destined to be an insignificant-cog-in-a-tiny-wheel-in-the-grand-machinery-of-Life??
I know, I know... without that one cog the whole machine could fall apart... blah.. blah.. blah..
But I dont want to be the insignificant-cog-in-a-tiny-wheel-in-the-grand-machinery-of-Life....
I want to be more...so much more...
I want to be that Giant Wheel that everyone can see and whose absense would be immediately missed...
But its days like today which make me doubt the possibility of that ever happening...
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In the Sidney Sheldon novel, The Other Side of Midnight, the lead female character has this line... she wants to be Catherine Alexander The Great..... But the great what??? And at the end of it all, she is betrayed and almost killed by her husband and ends up an amnesiac recovering in some God forsaken convent....
Now is that depressing or what??!!!
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I just have to figure this out: What do I need to do... or be... or have... to be Happy/Content/ At Peace...???
Some soul-searching is in order...
