...... I was recently awarded a gold medal for scholastic excellence!! A rarity for me given my unparalled love for lazing around...
...... the parents are in a state of bragging-to-any-random-stranger-about-their-awesome-daughter- happy .... which is a first!
...... I am finally being considered competent enough to enter the big, bad world of adults... I have a job...a place of my own... and a ton of responsibility... Im ABSOLUTELY loving it!!
...... I get my own Blackberry!!!!!! WOOOOHOOOO.... :D
This happiness, however, has been slightly tempered by a rejection on the personal front.... but Im pretending to be practical about it all.... these are my arguments...
...... Too much happiness is never good for anybody's sanity... there has got to be a little yin to my yang.... although I would'nt mind going a little nuts....
...... I'm older... I'm stronger... I can weather out any storm....
...... I have faced rejection numerous times before and I'm still here, aren't I?
I am strong... and I will survive... I have a lot of positive on my side to counter the negative...
I just really wish I would be able to sleep happier.... the dark brings about an onslaught of morose reflections... I realise that....
..... I am a hopeless romantic stuck inside the body of a fat, spectacled nerd....
..... The fat, ugly girl never gets picked to be cheerleader....
..... The outer shell is all that matters.... you could be the source of all sunshine on the inside and no one would care....
So I'm being the good, little nerd that I am and
..... squashing out the romantic in me
..... getting into my books, my work, my blog and the TV and not getting out
..... basking in the glory of my gold medal....
and I realise.... it's not half bad....
Even though I may be well on my way to being a ostrich with my head stuck in the ground.... for the time being it makes everything seem alright... I can carry a shovel to dig myself out of my rut....... sometime in the future....
