Im in love...... in love with the ghost of a past that could have been......................... and the shadow of a future yet to come.........
In my opinion, 20 years gives us enough time to realise what we have...what we want.... and also...what could have been...
I always considered myself a romantic..... believed there was a prince charming on a white horse waiting for me........ I even led myself to believe that I was in love... and not once or twice......but thrice.......... That was the ghost or rather ghosts of my past...a past that could have been...and yet, life and growing up has this way of bringing us out of our day dreams.... flinging off our rose coloured glasses and smacking us back to reality......
I have grown up...and none too soon..... I now look forward.... to a future...... yet to come....
And the romance of this situation is the uncertainty...the ambiguity of it all.... Whether the future I have envisioned for myself will actually materialise or not....................
The palpitations I now experience are not my heart beats dancing to the tunes of another person.... But for the excitement that one gets while watching ones future finally take shape....
And yet...I love both of these parts of my young life equally......
Each of them, in their own way, has helped me grow.... has shaped me into the person I am today......... the past has given me experiences...both good and bad.... more bad than good..... but all the same.... it has laid the foundation for my future...without which I would have been nothing but a message-in-a-bottle floating aimlessly in the restless ocean of life.....
Now...only one question remains..... where does my "today" fit in the equation???
Maybe the safest answer that I can give now is to say that my "today" is occupied thinking about the past..... planning out my future..... and working towards it.....
I have gotten my priorities straight..... FINALLY!
And I do believe that right now, as of this moment, NOTHING & NO ONE can make me stray away from my road to El Dorado.....
In my opinion, 20 years gives us enough time to realise what we have...what we want.... and also...what could have been...
I always considered myself a romantic..... believed there was a prince charming on a white horse waiting for me........ I even led myself to believe that I was in love... and not once or twice......but thrice.......... That was the ghost or rather ghosts of my past...a past that could have been...and yet, life and growing up has this way of bringing us out of our day dreams.... flinging off our rose coloured glasses and smacking us back to reality......
I have grown up...and none too soon..... I now look forward.... to a future...... yet to come....
And the romance of this situation is the uncertainty...the ambiguity of it all.... Whether the future I have envisioned for myself will actually materialise or not....................
The palpitations I now experience are not my heart beats dancing to the tunes of another person.... But for the excitement that one gets while watching ones future finally take shape....
And yet...I love both of these parts of my young life equally......
Each of them, in their own way, has helped me grow.... has shaped me into the person I am today......... the past has given me experiences...both good and bad.... more bad than good..... but all the same.... it has laid the foundation for my future...without which I would have been nothing but a message-in-a-bottle floating aimlessly in the restless ocean of life.....
Now...only one question remains..... where does my "today" fit in the equation???
Maybe the safest answer that I can give now is to say that my "today" is occupied thinking about the past..... planning out my future..... and working towards it.....
I have gotten my priorities straight..... FINALLY!
And I do believe that right now, as of this moment, NOTHING & NO ONE can make me stray away from my road to El Dorado.....
