If I could fly away.... I would

I have been here for almost two months now... and I'm still not able to settle in...
I feel like a stranger... an impostor... the ugly duckling among the cute, fluffy, yellow chicks...
An ugly, uncomfortable feeling of being under constant scrutiny... an unwelcome hindrance...
I feel like I'm stumbling along... on a path where I'm expected to walk tall...
And at any minute... the acceptable limit of stumbles will be crossed... and the ax will fall...

When Life blows you a raspberry...

I guess, I can blame this on Quarter- life Crisis...
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Mediocrity: Running away from it all my life...
Have I reached somewhere??
Or am I just stuck on a hamster's wheel???
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I had written some time back about finding/ being something that will make me happy/ at peace with life...
Well, my life has changed... it most definitely has...
Of all the doubts.. worries.. frustrations that plagued me for the last many, many months...
I WAS able to put a few to rest...
But you know what they say about being careful what you wish for??
You just may get it...