An update...

Recently was feeling like everything was going downhill........ again...

It's like the ultimate blow when a friends betrays you... gets you to start thinking about the human species...

Why is it that the victims become the villains and the perpetrators become the martyrs???

We are a bunch of selfish creatures (I include myself in the accusation as well)... each of us so lost in our own world that we fail to notice the havoc we are wrecking outside... SELFISH! SELFISH!! SELFISH!!! The human race disgusts me... makes my stomach turn!

In my next life I want to either be a cloud or a dog...

So anyways, all these days I kept suppressing this urge to shout out, "Why, in Gods name, did you have to do that??? Why?"

My mind was in a turmoil... I kept alternating between 1) wanting to cry my heart out on some sympathetic shoulder and 2) grabbing a knife or any, available sharp intrument and gouging out a particular set of eyes... eyes that im now too disgusted to even look at!!

Today, after many days, I finally saw the silver lining...

1) 4 more days till the trimester ends... then Im out of this crazy place

2) a much anticipated visit from a very special person.... something I was waiting for for almost 3 yrs... 

Hallelujah! Life is looking up again...!! :)

 

So heres my reasoning behind the superstition that a bird shitting on your head brings good luck...........

Its all about perspective.... once you got bird poop in your hair.... everything else, in comparison, seems pretty much like heaven....!!

Oh, suck it up! You know I'm right!!

Flying...

Losing myself.... losing grip....
reality is overrated, is'nt it....?
the harsh lights are suddenly looking so pretty...
all my fears of not belonging seem now so petty....
when I felt there was nowhere left to run...
All I needed was a bottle of rum...
Snorting down a line of white...
Suddenly everything feels just right....
I never knew dancing could be so much fun...
All I had to do, was no longer run....
The rat- race seems totally unnecessary...
under the bright, psychedelic lights, Im lost in a different kind of flurry....
Whirling........
Spinning........
Losing control.......
On waking up.... last night's a total blur....
Where?
How?
When?
What?
WHO AM I????
This stranger looking at me from the mirror???
It just can't be !!
Those mascara streaks dont belong to me!!!
Eyes travelling over the room..... taking the damage in...
I realise what I've done.... as reality sets in....
Now, with my ego bruised and battered, I look up to the sky....
All I wanted to do was fly..............................................

(Inspiration received from the movie "Fashion")

Lego....

   Was just looking back... and I realised that life is like a bunch of Lego pieces.... strewn apart they make no sense... same when they are fixed together haphazardly- without any thought given as to whether they fit right.... but when put together just right there's a beautiful, meaningful, well formed structure.....

   I guess this could be the source for the phrase "finding your niche"... just the manifestations of fitting two of life's building blocks just right!

   Its quite a nice feeling..... :) 

Kalyug... and then some!

And once again I have had the priviledge to witness the wondrous beauty of the dynamic human nature...blah blah blah... (can you catch the sarcasm i tried to lace so subtly over the above words?) 

Anyways, none of the boring details!

Some incidents have once again made me wonder whether the age we are living in is indeed a Kalyug... and if that is so then the fruit of our combined sins is fast ripening and it wont be long before the big man upstairs decides to dunk our planet into a large bowl of soup...like a giant dumpling....mmm dumpling soup.... (anyways, back to the point...)

Yea, now Im no doomsayer...but if we go about life the way we do, I would be left with no other option than runnning up and down the streets with my hair flying wildly around me and a mad glint in my eye, shouting out to whomsoever may listen, "REPENT SINNERS!!! THE END IS COMING!!!!!" 

Because if doing what is right, puts us in the wrong and makes us suffer instead of giving that well spoken of peace-of-mind... then our value system is seriously screwed up! 

So Ive given you something to think about..... why dont you mull over it..... while I go build myself a huge-ass, big boat to ride out the approaching storm...