Soul-searching......

I spent the whole of today working on some letters... some other minor documentation.... and fielding a few hundred phone calls...
And at the end of it all I just had one question for myself.... Is this what my life is going to be all about???
I mean, am I just destined to be an insignificant-cog-in-a-tiny-wheel-in-the-grand-machinery-of-Life??
I know, I know... without that one cog the whole machine could fall apart... blah.. blah.. blah..
But I dont want to be the insignificant-cog-in-a-tiny-wheel-in-the-grand-machinery-of-Life....
I want to be more...so much more...
I want to be that Giant Wheel that everyone can see and whose absense would be immediately missed...
But its days like today which make me doubt the possibility of that ever happening...
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In the Sidney Sheldon novel, The Other Side of Midnight, the lead female character has this line... she wants to be Catherine Alexander The Great..... But the great what??? And at the end of it all, she is betrayed and almost killed by her husband and ends up an amnesiac recovering in some God forsaken convent....
Now is that depressing or what??!!!
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I just have to figure this out: What do I need to do... or be... or have... to be Happy/Content/ At Peace...???
Some soul-searching is in order...

Mathemagic!!!!

This is soooo cool....
I am the proud possessor of an awesome magic trick....
And I am kind enough to demonstrate.....
Bow before me, lowly mortals!!!
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Alrighty then...
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Think of a number between 1 and 10
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Now multiply it by 5
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Then divide it by 2
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Now close your eyes....
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Dark, isn't it?
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HARHARHARHARHEEHEEHEEHOHOHOHO....
Yeah.... Im that easily pleased...

RTT: Squeakity squeakity squeak.....

Its Tuesday, and you know what that means....!! Random ramblings galore!!!!!
And for more Randomania (yes, its a word!)... go check out Keely at the Un-mom...
Cheers!
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My shoes squeak! They are like the rogue shopping carts in malls... apparently the only available ones by the time I arrive...
Sqeakity- squeak... squeakity-squeak....
And changing the speed of my stride doesn't help either... just alters the tempo a bit...
Squeeeakity...squueeeaakk...
Gah! its annoying!!!
Now I will never be able to realise my dream of becoming a ninja assasin... boo hoo...sob...
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I've not gone out in sooo long...
I think Im going to need a refresher course in Having-a-life...
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Im really missing my parents...
Im really missing my dogs...
Its hard living away from home...
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I have finally decided on my tattoo...
Now to make the appointment...
Yes mum, its happening.. :)
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Whoop whoop!!!! (I had to let that out...)

Invisible......

You look at me.... I drop my eyes....
I skirt around your perimeter...
You talk to me... I shy away....
My heart all a-flutter...
The days go by... you walk by me...
Sparing not a glance....
I look at you... you look through me...
Me.. the eternal wall flower...