A little dog died today....

She wasnt the worlds best dog.... quite the opposite, in fact! She was the little puppy who chomped through my math, economics and accountancy text books believing she had done me a huge favour! She was the little teething critter who completely destroyed countless pairs of footwear simply because she couldnt find her favourite chew-toy.....

She was also the little fluff ball who would crawl up under our blankets at night to grab some body warmth... the beautiful, bright, doe-eyed dog with the perked up ears who would always be the first one to greet you when you went to pet her (even though she would always unfailingly manage to dig her nails into our butt)..... She loved to run...and everytime she was let free she would zip around like a streak of wet lightening....

She was just four and a half years old.... she did not deserve to die... and yet she did...

its the worst thing in the world to have a beloved die in ones arms...and yet it happened....even though I kept imagining that any minute she would jump up as good as ever and launch herself on us in all her flailing, drooling glory...disappointment.... the sense of inadequacy the inability to do anything is absolutely heartwrenching... Its a burden I will have to bear for the rest of my life.... I can only try and console myself by imagining her in an endless open pasture, running and frolicking to her hearts content....

I just hope that there is a passageway connecting the place where dogs go, to the place where humans go.... Because, I dearly hope to someday see my snoopy-baby once again....

Love you, my darling.... rest in peace!!

Random...random...completely random...

There's this saying... "We travel the world seeking what we want..... and return home to find it.."

Im not sure how true that is.... Ive not really travelled the world... considering im a girl with very few means at my disposal... but then, another question is....how many of us are completely sure of what we want in life?? A couple here and there..maybe... But a majority of us are basically floundering through life barely sure of where we want to go...what we want to be.... Sure, its the easiest thing in the world to decide a profession for oneself...but im talking about the bigger picture... Im speaking about our own personal life mission... something we do to establish our own identity... nobody wants to live a life of annonymity, everybody needs to feel the limelight upon themselves at some point or another in their life... But then, in a world crawling with the tangled mass of countless broken dreams... how many actually manage to reach their pinnacle??????

Seems to me that when the saying was first coined, it basically meant that when we travel all over the world searching for our life's purpose and if we dont really find it...we finally come back home and settle for whatever we may find because no one ever wants to admit that they may have not accomplished what they set out to achieve in life... How many of us say that "all we want is... everything!!" Is it really possible to get EVERYTHING in life?????? I say thats utter pish-posh!! The fundamental law of alchemy states that in order to get anything, something of equal value has to be taken away..... Seems to be proven true... Mukesh Ambani may have a 60+ storeyed building for himself.... but he dont got no brother no more..........